"dream"

Birds were singing and the sun was shining bright
I was still on bed holding my blanket very tight ..
I was not in d mood to get rid of it
Obviously was not known by the gods trick ..
Finally I got up and drank a glass of water
It was dn my parents entered jst to say “ v r going , gd bye daughter”..
Though it was jst a usual start for the day for me
Bt my heart cud feel smthng special and it was full of glee..
It was continuously telling me dat “ gal ur missing something “
Bt my mind said dat its rubbish and drez absolutely nothing ..
I looked at the calendar and it wasn’t my b’day or any such day
And dn realized dat dey are still at a bay..
I went to my PC and opened the net
A mail stumbled and I tot it to be a confirmatn one or smthn lyk dat ..
Bt I was so shocked that I cant tell you hw happy I was
Jst dn everything seemed so beautiful lyk a garden full of flower and green grass..
It was neither confirmation nor any forwarded mail
Bt my love saying dat “ m coming “ making me feel gail ..
There was so much to do dat I got confused what to do 1st for ur welcm
I was so excited dat gt scared if I forgot to preapare some..
Oh god I was so happy dat I was feeling dat m on cloud nine
And this is y I wanted to make our meeting very shine..
I went to mkt nd gt chocolates, flowers and all your favourite stuff
Dis is how d day ended with the sun setting making the clouds buff..
Finally the day came and I packed each nd everythn with my luv and affectn
May be bcuz I wanted to shw u dat m betr wen it comes ti perfection..
I tuk the keys of my car and reached our meeting point 2 hrs before
Bcuz I really wanted to make u feel like a prince of a castle dat too on a shore ...
Ahh god knows hw the tym passed in preparations
And dn I dnt hv to wait much for the beautiful celebration..
Gosh I wanted to ask you so much of questions
And above all I wanted to make you feel wat was my situation..
My heart silently said “ please come soon “ cuz dat tym evern a min seemed lyk an hour
No wonder I was a patient of disease called ishq , mohabbat and pyar..
My curiosity came to an end wn I saw u walking thru the door
Dn even the sea seemed happy and made a roar ..
I cudnt believe that u were standing nxt to me
That I was speechless and forget to ask u to have a seat nd a cup of tea..
You managed to ask “ how are u my dear “ with a smile on ur face
It was dn I hugged u and cried askin whr were u with not even a singl trace..
You said nothing but held meso tightly in your arms
Dat it looked as if even d god wanted to hold the tym and our charm ...........

" kyu "

KYU AB SAB KCH KEH KAR BHI HAR BAAT ADHURI REHTI HAI ,
KYU BINA KCH KAHE BHI USKI HAR BAAT SAMAJH ME AATI HAI ..
KYU AB NAZRE SIRF USI KI RAAH TAKTI HAI ,
KYU GHANTO USKA INTZAR KARKE BHI YE NHI THAKTI HAI .. KYU AB YE DIN SIRF USI KI RAAH ME KAT TA HAI ,
KYU USKI EK JHALAK PAA KAR YE DIL IS QADAR DHADAKTA HAI ..
KYU AB USKA ZIKRA AATE HI YE DIL YU SHARMATA HAI ,
KYU USKA NAAM SUNTE HI YE WAQT THEHER JATA HAI ..
KYU AB USKE SAAMNE HAR KOI BEGANA SA LAGTA HAI ,
KYU USKE NA HONE PAR SAB KUCH ANDEKHA ANJANA SA LAGTA HAI ..
KYU AB YE HAWA BHI MUJHSE BAATEIN KARTI HAI ,
KYU EK HAWA KA JHOKA BHI MERA MAZAQ UDATA HAI ..
KYU HAR SUNI UNSUNI BAAT MERA HI AFSANA LAGTA HAI ,
KYU HAR GEET GAZAL MERA HI TARANA LAGTA HAI ..
KYU AB SAB MUJHE USKI DEEWANI KEHTE HAI ,
KYU AB SAB MUJHE EK ADHURI KAHANI KEHTE HAI ..
KYU USKE SAAMNE AATE HI MAI SAB KUCH BHUL JATI HU ,
KYU FIR USKE JAATE HI MAI BHID ME TANHA REH JATI HU ..
KYU HO JATI HAI YE ZINDAGI BHI BEWAQT PURI , KYU IS ZINDAGI KA KOI AASHIYANA NHI HOTA ……….


P.S. some questions are never answered ….

PROMISES DON'T COME EASY ..

I shd hv known all along ..
dat there was smthn wrong ..
I jst never read between d lines ..
dn I woke up one day ..
and found u on ur way ..
leavn nuthn bt my heart behind ..
what cn i do to mk it up to u ..
promises dnt cm easy ..
bt tell me if derez a way..
to bring u back some day ..
i hv been walking arnd ..
with my head hanging down ..
wondering what m gonna do ..
cuz wn u walkd out of d door ..
i knew i needed u mre ..
thn to tk a chance on loosn u ..
u knw dat i hv made up my mind ..
to get it dn dis tym ..
dats my promise 2 u nw ..

MERI CHAHAT ..

tumhe bhul kar b bhul na paenge ,
har janam saato janam , bas tumhe aur tumhi ko chahenge ..
socha tha isi janam me hum tumhe paenge ,
choti si hi sahi , par tumhare dil me apni ek jagah banaenge ..
shayad kch zyada hi mang liya tha is dil ne unse ,
par chahat ki thi bdi shiddat se humne kasam se ..
anjane me hi sahi , khata to hui thi humse ,
nahi jante the chod jaoge tanha hume is kadar se ..
humse humara apna dil rutha to tha , dil humara bhi tuta to tha ,
par kis ko dosh de , yahan to dil bhi apna aur dard bhi tanha sa tha ..
tumhare hi die huye dard se vinnati ab ye karte hai ,
chuye na tumhe kabhi b , hum apni haar khushi se kabool krte hai ..
khush raho hamesha bas yhi sochte hai ,
tumse kbhi na ruthe rab bas yhi chahat rakhte hai .............:)

meri aarzoo ..

mujhme chupa ek raaz hai tu , mujhme chupa ek ehsaas hai tu ..

mere jeevan ka anpadha , fir bhi sabse sundar adhyay hai tu ..

tere kahe har alfaz ko dil me chupaye rakhna hai ..

tu hi meri zindagi ki wajah , tu hi bas aakhri tamanna hai ..

dil janta hi ki ek din tu chala jayega , aur ye dil fir tanha reh jayega ..

sari zindagi is dil ne manga tujhe , aur tu hi ab ise dukhaega ..

tujhe dur jata hua dekh kr , ye dil apne aapko akela paega ..

fir bhi has has kr , apne har gam ko khud se hi chupaega ..

jate jate jb tu mujhko apne dil se lagaega ..

tab bhi ye bechara dil , chah kr bhi tujhko rok na paega or na hi kbhi tujhe bhulaega .. :(

ye dil ..

dil ne kaha pyar na kar , pyar kar pr aitbaar na kar ..

dil tera dobara tut jayega , aur fir ruth kr wo chala jayega ..

uske jane pr yu aitraz na kar , aitraz kr magar fir se pyar na kar ..

kyu fir ye dil dukhta hai , har jagah har pal bas usi ko dhundta hai ..

fir bhi ye usi se pyar karta hai ,uske ek deedar k liye tarasta hai ..

use kisi aur k sath dekh kr rota hai , aur pal pal har pal usi pe marta hai ..

"wo aayega" har bar bas yhi kehta hai , fir bhi use bhul jau ye chahta hai ..

har aahat sun fir bhi ye dhadakta hai , aur use waha na paa kr uska intzar karta hai ..

bhulna bhi chahu, fir bhi ye har lamha usi ki yaad dilata hai

fir bhi merii halat ka zimmedar mujhe hi tehrata hai .. :(

first day of my college ..

everything was strange , everyone was mysterious..
still to know them , my heart was so curious
being a part of a huge crowd, still i was so lonely..
finally found a girl with whom i could relate myself so closely
i asked d girl what was her name .. ??
bt i guess my presence to her was xtremely lame
i don't know why she left me alone there..
and her nature to me was exceptionally rare
my eyes were so amazed to see the same girl in my class..
and she was looking so expressionless , just like an empty glass
her name is SHWETA WATTAL (8EC-107), she finally told me..
and from that day i knew that she was written in my distiny
the tym when we were trying to explore each other..
a teacher with a cap (FCP) entered and our conversation didn't go any further
it was then our lectures started off like no other thing ..
and on the very first day, we were asked to cut off our not so developed wings
we were told to leave for our buses at 4..
while entering my bus 11-D , my heart was on a roar
after entering into my bus , i could find a girl of my batch ..
and she was the only one with whom i could attach
"my name is DIVYA KAUSHIK(8ECW-019) , she introduced herself to me ..
and her charming smile filled my heart with glee
both of us were trying to ignore our seniors ..
as if they had done something to us extremely vicious
then 2 of our seniors (bhavdeep and aakrit) cm in the front..
to take the permission in order to have our intro for some fun
we were staring at them , not because they are really hansome ..
but so as to listen to their conversation nd hoping dat our inchange wnt iv them the permission
but i guess i was exepecting too much out of him ..
and then i wanted to know whether he was the incharge or they were the one !!!
one with the french beard ( aakrit sir) and an innocent face ..
yet not so trusting with his mischievious trace
and the one on blue and white ( bhavdeep sir) looked so handsome ..
that i was speechless and don't have the words to describe
still i wanted to ignore their presence ..
because i was actually very afraid of their arrogance
finally don't know where bt we jumped out of the bus ..
leaving behind my belongings , to get out of ragging fuss
today i want to go back to the time ..
and want to live those moments that made my very first day shine ..

THANK YOU SO MCH TO SHWETA , DIVYA , BHAVDEEP SIR AND AAKRIT SIR ..

wo ajnabee ..

anjana andekha sa khwab hai tu
dil k kone me chupa ek raaz hai tu.
barish ki bundo me dhunde jise
wo mera haseen jazbat hai tu
har taraf mehsus dil jise kare
wahi sirf mera aur mera DDLJ ka Raj hai tu
dil ki dhadkan bhi jise na samajh saki
wo mera anchua ehsas hai tu
mere hoth bhi na kar sake bayaan jise
wo mera sajaya hua lafzo ka haar hai tu
kaano me gunje awaaz jiski
wahi har disha ghumti mad mast fiza hai tu
hai jagah dikhta mujhe chehra jiska
wo meri ankho me chupa dildar hai tu
dekha nhi kbhi in ankho ne jise
wahi dil todta fir bhi jaan se pyara khwab hai tu
dilbar hai tu diljigar hai tu
sirf mera aur mera har janam ka sathi hai tu